Meluat.

I have been in a situation where im the subject of gossip, back stabbed and also being in the middle of a very intense situation. Trust me non of those we dont want to be in but its life. I mean theres all sort of people around you and you cant pleased others most of your time.

Most people know that im a loud mouth and i say whatever it is i want to say.My favorite quote is always been 'Im not saying anything but im just saying'.
My loud mouth do make people talk and judge me. I really dont mind.They can say, judge whatever they want.

Ive been into numerous altercation with other people. But mostly its work related. Its different when it comes to work related and personal related. During my days when i work as an Assistant to my Project Manager was the time when i get into intense altercation. There's one situation where i was in a very intense discussion with one of my Engineer. Ive tried to explained to him but he just couldn't accept it because im " just a girl ". When you're working with man and working in their nature, we woman cant voiced out my opinion. Man and their ego. So right after he ditched my suggestion after he said im just a girl and i dont know stuff, i tell him off. 

" I dont like your attitude and im sure as hell don't like your work ethics! "

 Apparently, i was the only female whoever raised my voice and tell him off because non of the girls working with him have the gutts to tell him off.

Then later that week i found out that he was fired because he wasnt doing his job and he tried to pulled me down with him.

When it comes to personal altercation, i tend to be more civilized. I was in a messing argument with this one girl. She was being all pathetic and i wasnt interested to entertained myself when she started yapping and pin point all my mistakes. I just smiled and listen. But deep down i was like ' sheeesh woman! '.

Then few months ago, i was in a horrible fight with this one person. I have to admit that i did something wrong and i do apologized  to that person but then again this person starts to involved other people into the picture. Starts comparing my life, my work,my personal relationship, my family, my Husband and even my physical appearance. The fight is just about one small thing, but end up everything was put into the table. Its all like high school drama!

At the back of my mind im thinking ' i did apologized to begin with, and i dont think the issues is such a huge deal. but why need to include EVERYTHING!?'. Then i told myself might as well i pulled myself back and divert. If i start to bailed myself out and cover myself from these allegation, things would get alot more worst. So, as a mature and better person that i believed i am, i walked out!

Now, when i think about it i felt so disgusted and meluat! How 'matured' can claimed about themselves but then their actions are way opposite. Im glad I walked away from that situation and im glad that i got sorted out.

I hope that I can be patience. I can keep my cool, and hold on to my dignity for once in my life! :)