I Gave Birth To A Fighter.

I bet all the woman in the world wanted to become a mother. Carrying your baby, gave birth to them is the greatest honor any mother could asked for. So whenever we found out that we're pregnant, only God knows how we feel. Excited, scared, happy, terrified. All mixed into one. Like a huge bowl of fruit salad.


So when me and my Husbands finds out that were having a baby, I was super excited.We never planned to have a baby as soon as we got married. I told my Husband that let God do his magic and if it does happen, we will accept it with an open arms and hearts.

I was scared obviously because this is my first baby and my first time carrying such a blessing in my belly.I try to stop all my favorite activities but im the type of person who just cant sit still. But I still managed to control myself. But not when it comes to food cravings.

As weeks and months goes by, Doctor Raja Juhaida from Columbia Asia Puchong told me that I might be having a Preclampsia. Preclampsia is a term for Diabetic pregnancy. Bare in mind that I dont have any problems with my sugar level but then again thinking of all the food I ate through out my pregnancy, I got chills through out my spine whenever I heard the word "Preclampsia".

Reaching 36 weeks I had to delivered my baby 4 weeks early via emergency C-section.I was scared, terrified and also excited to meet the little guy inside who loves to toss and turn in my belly for the past 8 months.

Alhamdulillah he was well and healthy.Everything was fine and dandy. But Doctor Wong who is the Pediatrician warn me and my Husband that our baby is a fragile baby. Means no outdoor for atleast 9 months. He needs to be indoor all the time.

So started a journey me and my Husband with our new born baby. The first month of Baby D life, he was admitted for pro longed Jaundice.He stayed at Nicu for a month. But so far nothing serious. Then he got discharged and so far until his 6 months old.

Then he had to admitted again because he had a lung infection and Rotavirus. He was admitted for 2 weeks at Hospital Putrajaya. Then 2 days after he was discharge, He was admitted again at Hospital Serdang for another 2 weeks.It was a very stressful stage for me and my family.

Then the doctor found out that Baby D has problem with his Heart. It turns out, he has a small valve opening on his Heart. This occurs to all premature babies. His case is exactly the same with his father 30 years ago.So as for now, Baby D is under observation and he needs to go for his medical check up every 6 months to make sure that the valve doesn't closed completely.

But then yesterday, before I headed off to work, I noticed that Baby D has a slight fever.I was feeling good about it but I had to go to work. Then after I came home, his fever is getting worst. Worst to a point where he had seizures. Took him to the hospital and he need to be admitted again.

Even the doctors in the Emergency rooms could recognized me and Baby D.I was so scared at that point luckily my parents are there.Then my father said to me 

" stay strong. His a fighter. He was born a fighter. So you need to be strong like a fighter just like him! ".


So as of now he still in observation period at Hospital. At this moment of time,I remember a quote from one of my friends who is a premie mother. She once told me 

" being a premie mother is a blessing. Not all mother are strong enough to gave birth , to nurture , to care for a premature babies. Only selected mother.We are limited edition mother. "

Dear Allah s..w.t,

I know Ive doubted you so many times, I never do the things You asked us too, Ive made alot of sins towards my parents, my family, friends. But Alhamdulillah, thank you for all the blessing you granted me all this while.