Is It All Worth It?

Before I started working in Mitsubishi, I was working as a Company Secretary and Personal Assistant for a construction company. My boss was a nice Indian guy. He was about my dads' age and he hasn't been such a pain in the butt so to speak.I learn alot from him and also from my other colleague. My interest in Engineering / Mechanical field develop thanks to my previous boss and also from my Father. While I was doing all administrative work for my company and personal assistant work for my boss, I managed to slip through some of draughts work such as a simple editing and revised on the drawing. Then my father managed to teach me on some technical editing for air -conditioning systems.

When I was working at my previous company, I was a busy person. I was working 247 literally. I wasnt allowed to switch off my phone during the night, I hardly get to take annual leave and I constantly followed my boss whenever he has a meeting. Come to a point where I sometimes had a fight with my ex boyfriend because he thought me and my boss were having an affair. My parents was the one whom bit reluctant when I told them I have to work late almost every night and I have to follow him for a meeting. But they somehow understand that their daughter is no longer tight on a leash.

I was happy with my work and my life despite the fact I have lack of sleep and my eye bags and getting worst and worst. To be honest I was so surprised that even I don't have enough time to sleep, my eating schedule has gone haywire, I didnt get sick at all. Not even a simple fever or flu. At all!

Then when my boss told me that his retiring and returning to India for good, I was pretty upset because I love my job so much. I love the feeling of being needed by someone and I feel Im a huge part of the whole company.I enjoy the hectic  scenario, running around chasing dateline.

So when I start working with Mitsubishi as Technical Assistant, I feel so lost. Because my daily routine at the office is just sit at my desk and do my work. There's no running around, there's no constant calls from my boss asking whats his agenda for the day. Honestly speaking I was soo lost and depressed.I told my mom about this and she completely understand my situation because she works with Telekom for her entire life and after she return to Malaysia from Cape Town for work and she decided to retire, she felt completely lost also. Staying at home, doing nothing, on ones at home during the day. She said sometimes she felt like she's about to go mental.

Then as years pass, I starting to love my job here in Mitsubishi. The bosses here are amazing. The treating their staff as family and I really felt like 'home'.As many of you know I studied Business Management and Human Resources and let me tell you, I know nothing about my work.Even I have bit background on Mechanical Engineering and Draughts.

Looking back on the days were I worked with my previous boss, I came to realized that, how workaholic I really am.Well when your working with an international company you get paid alot if you perform but then you lack of quality times with your family and loves one. I think if I still work with my previous boss and my work life is as hectic as it is, I would felt so guilty to Dani and also to Daniel.

Now, there's one guy in particular in my current company which reminds me so much as myself during the days. He was my General Manager. I have a whole load of respect for this guy. Never once I was him taking leave nor sick leave. His constantly working.I once saw him about to snap afew weeks ago and I was so scared for him.He was the one whos dealing directly with all client and consultant. The other day we were having lunch together and he told me and my other colleague how tired he was. His mentally tired. He was telling all sort of things and he feel like he wanted to drop everything and just leave. Before we left the table he said " Haiya i cerite sama u guys , kau orang tak akan faham betapa penat nya aku buat kene untuk boss! ".

I smiled and said to myself " Dude you have no fucking idea. "

At home I told my father and Dani what happen and I asked them question

" is it all worth it untuk pening2 kepala, sampai tak boleh amek cuti untuk rehat tapi gaji 10 - 20k per month? "

Dani and my dad was like " YEP!"

" certain jobs cost alot of money and they dont come easy. Its how you channel your stress and your tiredness whenever your at work, getting yelled from your boss. When your at work, your boss owned you. So give you full commitment.He pays you alot of money for a reason. So deal with it! "