Its been in the family where during dinner time, the four of us will share stories about almost everything. Abah will talk about his friends or his work which honestly i was abit shock knowing that abah is not the type yang suke share stories or work load dekat kite org. Alya will start yapping about her classmate acting all bitchy and her homework.So bile in the mood, me and my mom were the last person to leave the dining table. We love to have a conversation about serious matter.Mainly about her side of the family or abah side of the family.
But out of nowhere she asked about Che Mat. She was so eager wanting to know more about Che Mat.So i told her everything that i knew about Che Mat. His family background and other stuff that i think its appropriate for me to tell.When she found out that Che Mat had afew difficulties while growing up, i realized my mom starting to cry. I noticed that afew times she tries to wipe of her tears whenever im not looking at her..My mom is a very emotional woman. She cant bare the fact of knowing someone who has a difficult life.Tak kesah la if that person die kenal or tak. Thats why kite orang tak suke tengok drama melayu ngan mak. Out of nowhere as we were so into the drama, dekat background dengar ade orang ngah nangis. Tu yang malas tu. Abahs' common statement to mak,
" laaa... yang u nangis nape tot? Drama aje.... "
While me, being my 'so-not-sensitive' mode tend to took the liberty on cracking jokes. Aku amek baldi kat dapur and letak kat depan mak. and Alya will hand over the tissue box.Hahahaha..... Nasib mak was okay with it.. Kalo tak, ade jugak kepala aku kene hantuk dengan selipar.
Ok, back to the story...
As i finished cleaning the Kitchen, i go to my room and chill as always, sudden i come to realized something,
There are times growing up i hated my parents just because they wont let me going to concert, going out for late night movies with my friends or buying the car that ive wanted. There's are other people in the world who haven't had the privileged wearing nice clothes, eat the most amazing food, have a huge and comfortable house, a bed to sleep on.
Banyak kesedaran yang aku dapat bile Che Mat bercerite pasal his past life. How he and his siblings pick up the pieces after what happen. But the thing yang i couldnt help not to cry is everytime he talks about his baby brother Sobirin. Che Mat loves his baby brother so much. Sobirin was very 'special'.. Everytime Che Mat balik Sungai Petani, i had a chance talking to Sobirin over the phone. Even i dont understand what his trying to say most of the time, but i was really happy to hear his voice.Bile Che Mat balik Kedah, thats the day when Sobirin was really happy sebab ade orang melayan dia.At some point i told Che Mat how i wish i could be in his shoes. Having a brother. But then he said if i was in his shoes, he dont think i could survive. Knowing the things that he have to go through while growing up. I miss my baby brother though. Even i didnt get the chance to hold him. Talk to him or even hearing his voice..
Whenever i look at Che Mat, rase macam sayu yang amat.. He always smiling, laughing and cracking up stupid jokes with me, but somehow i can sense some 'incomplete' in his soul. He misses his mom so much. Lelaki ni ego. Bile comes touchy situation, they prefer to built a 5-foot brick walls infront of him just to make sure that others wont sense any thing from them.Whenever i had the chance, i will cook for him knowing that its been ages since he had a home cook meal. So whatever he likes to eat, i will try my best to cook. And it took me a year plus to make him chubby. Perut da makin naik, and pipi da makin bulat.Bile aku tengok die berselra makan i asked him sedap sangat ke makan sampai bertambah, he just said sebab dah lame tak ade orang masakkan untuk die. Mau tak nangis aku dengar die cakap camtu????
Ummi now dekat Cape Town, so its been awhile since Che Mat jumpe ummi. Aku slalu tanye Che mat sama ade he misses ummi ke x. His answers were " biase la.."...Thats it!. So last Monday i had an arrangement with Ummi to Skype. So that boleh la depan lepaskan rindu. While he was Skype-ing with Ummi, Che Mat was totully different.Even he was his normal self, cracking jokes, smiling and such but he was different. Bila da habis Skype-ing, he didnt say much...Then while i was driving, i can sense that, he really does misses his mom more than he realized....
For me, family is so important to me. I cant live without my parents especially my mom..Even kite orang selalu gaduh but i cant be away from my family. Ive confessed that so many times with my parents.
"Habis tak kan ur husband nak duduk skali ngan mak n abah. You need to have your own life as well.We wont be here for long time..."
Tiap kali mak cakap camtu, the both of us end up crying.. :(
I cant imagine Che Mats' feeling of not having Ummi around on daily basis. But Che Mat was used to it..
People always say never compared our life to others. But sometimes, i do compared my life with Che Mat. From what i see, we have two completely different life.I get to choose what i want i and i always get what i want. But him, he cant even have the things that he needed..
He never gets the chance to go out shopping, buying expensive clothes, eat wherever he wants. But me, i have more than what i needed.
Sometimes, we never satisfied with the things we already have in life.Kita berusaha cam separuh mati just to have more money and by that, we can buy things what we always wanted.and yet bile da dapat, kite still tak bersyukur and nak kan bende lain pulak..Ive been there before. But bila da bekerja baru aku faham....
So now im bless to have such an amazing family, wonderful friends and also my extended families. Even though im not perfect but these are the people who always been on my side when times i needed them the most. Not judging whenever i make stupid mistakes in life, guide me to the right path whenever im going the wrong way.
But out of nowhere she asked about Che Mat. She was so eager wanting to know more about Che Mat.So i told her everything that i knew about Che Mat. His family background and other stuff that i think its appropriate for me to tell.When she found out that Che Mat had afew difficulties while growing up, i realized my mom starting to cry. I noticed that afew times she tries to wipe of her tears whenever im not looking at her..My mom is a very emotional woman. She cant bare the fact of knowing someone who has a difficult life.Tak kesah la if that person die kenal or tak. Thats why kite orang tak suke tengok drama melayu ngan mak. Out of nowhere as we were so into the drama, dekat background dengar ade orang ngah nangis. Tu yang malas tu. Abahs' common statement to mak,
" laaa... yang u nangis nape tot? Drama aje.... "
While me, being my 'so-not-sensitive' mode tend to took the liberty on cracking jokes. Aku amek baldi kat dapur and letak kat depan mak. and Alya will hand over the tissue box.Hahahaha..... Nasib mak was okay with it.. Kalo tak, ade jugak kepala aku kene hantuk dengan selipar.
Ok, back to the story...
As i finished cleaning the Kitchen, i go to my room and chill as always, sudden i come to realized something,
There are times growing up i hated my parents just because they wont let me going to concert, going out for late night movies with my friends or buying the car that ive wanted. There's are other people in the world who haven't had the privileged wearing nice clothes, eat the most amazing food, have a huge and comfortable house, a bed to sleep on.
Banyak kesedaran yang aku dapat bile Che Mat bercerite pasal his past life. How he and his siblings pick up the pieces after what happen. But the thing yang i couldnt help not to cry is everytime he talks about his baby brother Sobirin. Che Mat loves his baby brother so much. Sobirin was very 'special'.. Everytime Che Mat balik Sungai Petani, i had a chance talking to Sobirin over the phone. Even i dont understand what his trying to say most of the time, but i was really happy to hear his voice.Bile Che Mat balik Kedah, thats the day when Sobirin was really happy sebab ade orang melayan dia.At some point i told Che Mat how i wish i could be in his shoes. Having a brother. But then he said if i was in his shoes, he dont think i could survive. Knowing the things that he have to go through while growing up. I miss my baby brother though. Even i didnt get the chance to hold him. Talk to him or even hearing his voice..
Whenever i look at Che Mat, rase macam sayu yang amat.. He always smiling, laughing and cracking up stupid jokes with me, but somehow i can sense some 'incomplete' in his soul. He misses his mom so much. Lelaki ni ego. Bile comes touchy situation, they prefer to built a 5-foot brick walls infront of him just to make sure that others wont sense any thing from them.Whenever i had the chance, i will cook for him knowing that its been ages since he had a home cook meal. So whatever he likes to eat, i will try my best to cook. And it took me a year plus to make him chubby. Perut da makin naik, and pipi da makin bulat.Bile aku tengok die berselra makan i asked him sedap sangat ke makan sampai bertambah, he just said sebab dah lame tak ade orang masakkan untuk die. Mau tak nangis aku dengar die cakap camtu????
Ummi now dekat Cape Town, so its been awhile since Che Mat jumpe ummi. Aku slalu tanye Che mat sama ade he misses ummi ke x. His answers were " biase la.."...Thats it!. So last Monday i had an arrangement with Ummi to Skype. So that boleh la depan lepaskan rindu. While he was Skype-ing with Ummi, Che Mat was totully different.Even he was his normal self, cracking jokes, smiling and such but he was different. Bila da habis Skype-ing, he didnt say much...Then while i was driving, i can sense that, he really does misses his mom more than he realized....
For me, family is so important to me. I cant live without my parents especially my mom..Even kite orang selalu gaduh but i cant be away from my family. Ive confessed that so many times with my parents.
"Habis tak kan ur husband nak duduk skali ngan mak n abah. You need to have your own life as well.We wont be here for long time..."
Tiap kali mak cakap camtu, the both of us end up crying.. :(
I cant imagine Che Mats' feeling of not having Ummi around on daily basis. But Che Mat was used to it..
People always say never compared our life to others. But sometimes, i do compared my life with Che Mat. From what i see, we have two completely different life.I get to choose what i want i and i always get what i want. But him, he cant even have the things that he needed..
He never gets the chance to go out shopping, buying expensive clothes, eat wherever he wants. But me, i have more than what i needed.
Sometimes, we never satisfied with the things we already have in life.Kita berusaha cam separuh mati just to have more money and by that, we can buy things what we always wanted.and yet bile da dapat, kite still tak bersyukur and nak kan bende lain pulak..Ive been there before. But bila da bekerja baru aku faham....
So now im bless to have such an amazing family, wonderful friends and also my extended families. Even though im not perfect but these are the people who always been on my side when times i needed them the most. Not judging whenever i make stupid mistakes in life, guide me to the right path whenever im going the wrong way.
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