Muhd Nor. Adam.. i was 17 when i first met him.. His tall, dark and very good looking.. His one rich ass fella.. his working with his father's company and his the COO..His a Sundderland University grad in Mechanical Engineering..Untie rozi and uncle tahir was really proud of him...Same goes to his sister Shahirah Elnisa and his younger brother Muhd.Nor Aidil...Adam has a twin brother. Muhd. Nor adlin but he passed away when he was 18 due to heart failure.. Both of them suffering from heart complication since their birth..
I still remember adam first word to me.." kak, rokok ade x? nk pinjam 1?" i replied back to him.. "aku ade rokok but kalo nk pinjam ko kene pulangkan"..hahah..i still remember his smile..haih.. gosh i miss those smile..from there, we hang out alot..until one day he asked me out for dinner..
Our first dinner wat at Victoria Station at Jalan Ampang..He came to my house, introduce himself to my parents and talked for afew mins..When we reach there, theres no other people in the restaurant..
"is the restaurant close?" i asked him..He smile while holding my hand and said..
"Its close for other customers but not for us"..
we had a great time that nite...later he send me back and before i get off from his car, he pulled my hand and hand over a Tiffany Charm bracelette..i was so pretty...its a silver bracelette with a huge heart shape locket...
he said its a gift for my upcoming birthday coz he wont be in kl.. His leaving to Amsterdam for work...
Days go by, we been together for 2 years...23rd jan 2005, he left me to persue his MBA at Melbourne University...I was crying when we're at the airport.. Before he left, he gave me a huge paper bag.. Inside is, theres was afew pink african lilies(fave flowers), collage of all our pics, his clothes, and his fave perfume..After we switch watches, he gave me a hug, kiss on the forehead n hug me while saying..
" study hard.. i will wait for u to come there..I will wait until u finish ur Master there..i promise i never leave u"..
i cried again...
Seeing him left is too paintfull for me to handle..i stayed at the airport for another 3 hours..i cant find the strenght to leave...i just stood at the exact spot where we separated..haih... Adam, u have no idea how i felt that time..
on July i received acall from aidil.. he was in UK that time.. he told me that adam has been hospitalized when they we out shopping at Harolds..He need to go through a major heart surgery..heart complications again.. Ya Allah!! n i cant be there with him..afew days after that, he called me at 3.30am malaysia time.. he said he miss me and will return home for Hari Raya.. He already asked his parent to come n meet my parents to discuss on our wedding date..i was overjoyed..His finally coming home to me...
21st Oct 2006 - suddently,my phone rang..thank god its him...
when i answer the phone,the only thing i heard is a someone crying at the background..i recognized that voice screaming at the back.. its was his mother shouting adams' name...
" zara, adam dah tak ade... dia dah meningal tgh ari td..mase dia tengah pack barang, die jatuh n kepala die berdarah"...
He left me.. he really left me..we supposed to celebrate raya together and u left me!!
Now, when i read back all ur msges and email, i smile and wondered.. wat will happen to us if u still alive? im sure we're already married and have children by now..
Adam, if u happen to read this, Happy 31st bday..I miss u so so so much.. u have no idea how i felt when u left me...i miss u... i luv u.. hope to see you on the other side.. muuahzx...
Muhd. Nor Adam
10th May 1979 - 21st OCT 2006.
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