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We're down to 69 days to wed. Yes.. Barely 9 weeks left for him as a single man and me as a single girl.We're just waiting for the day to come as most of our preparation has completed. This is not an easy experienced for the both of us. This is the time where people call it "the crucial moment" or typical malay woman calls it "darah manis".
From facing afew problems with the Pejabat Agama and to financial issues. Yes. Hal tu memang dah tak boleh lari.Being engaged for 11 months was a very long time for me at first. But trust me it wasnt. Time flies really fast in this process.
Afew weeks ago , i somehow went through a panic attack. It all started with me and Mr. Finace were spending sometime in KLCC for a light shopping.As we were walking, window shopping and bought afew things for myself and him, it came to me
" what if we're going to be broke after our wedding?"
"what if he cant support me and my kinds?"
"What is he doesnt love me anymore after we got married?"
"what if he cheated on me?"
All this what if questioned really haunts me and it freaks me out. I was so cough up with it until i was admitted for high blood pressure.
This is something which never happened to me before. My family has no history of high blood pressure. Not even my mom or my dad. But i only have low blood pressure. So when the doctor found out, he was shocked. He was really concern because something like this don't happened often to someone so young. So i told him that ive been so stress with everything and i didn't have enough rest.
I constantly having head ache and the pain is killing me.Then the doc asked me to take a few sick day leave and stay home. It has been a week now and the head ache is still there.Since then, every morning my dad would wake me up in the morning and checked my sugar level and also my blood pressure.
Til this day i still remember my conversation with the doctor.
" org lain pun kawen jugak how come pasal kawen you sampai high blood pressure?"...the doc asked " you know men... " i replied... then he said " all man are jerks la..you should know by now"
We're down to 69 days to wed. Yes.. Barely 9 weeks left for him as a single man and me as a single girl.We're just waiting for the day to come as most of our preparation has completed. This is not an easy experienced for the both of us. This is the time where people call it "the crucial moment" or typical malay woman calls it "darah manis".
From facing afew problems with the Pejabat Agama and to financial issues. Yes. Hal tu memang dah tak boleh lari.Being engaged for 11 months was a very long time for me at first. But trust me it wasnt. Time flies really fast in this process.
Afew weeks ago , i somehow went through a panic attack. It all started with me and Mr. Finace were spending sometime in KLCC for a light shopping.As we were walking, window shopping and bought afew things for myself and him, it came to me
" what if we're going to be broke after our wedding?"
"what if he cant support me and my kinds?"
"What is he doesnt love me anymore after we got married?"
"what if he cheated on me?"
All this what if questioned really haunts me and it freaks me out. I was so cough up with it until i was admitted for high blood pressure.
This is something which never happened to me before. My family has no history of high blood pressure. Not even my mom or my dad. But i only have low blood pressure. So when the doctor found out, he was shocked. He was really concern because something like this don't happened often to someone so young. So i told him that ive been so stress with everything and i didn't have enough rest.
I constantly having head ache and the pain is killing me.Then the doc asked me to take a few sick day leave and stay home. It has been a week now and the head ache is still there.Since then, every morning my dad would wake me up in the morning and checked my sugar level and also my blood pressure.
Til this day i still remember my conversation with the doctor.
" org lain pun kawen jugak how come pasal kawen you sampai high blood pressure?"...the doc asked " you know men... " i replied... then he said " all man are jerks la..you should know by now"
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