Mummy Moment.

I never get it why mothers mostly love to kiss and hug their babies until they suffocated, then taking alot of pictures on their phones and changes the phone background to their children pictures. This is what people called #mummysyndrome.

At first before carrying Baby D in my belly I told Dani that I wont do such thing and I wont be " batak anak ". Dani was giving a face. The " kau tengok la nanti bile dah ade anak " face.

So fast forward to today, 

" Hi! My name is Zara and Im a mother whom is batak anak ".

Everywhere in my phone you can find a picture of Baby D. My office desk itself has up to 4 pictures of him alone.Well thats qualifies me to be " batak anak ".

As of lately throughout February I was feeling abit emotional. Whenever I came home from work the first thing I would do is kiss and hug Baby D until he cries. YES! I do that now just to annoy him. And I enjoy it so much hearing him crying and pushing my face away from his.

* His other talent was - Sleeping with one eye open *

Afew days ago, I was hanging our laundry and Dani was feeding Baby D and out of nowhere Baby D say ' Atoooo'. Me and Dani were like 'biar betul'. Dani was so excited and he repeatedly asking Baby D to say it again. But no luck. Then at one point I felt down and sad.Dani noticed and asked me whats wrong.

Baby D and his many talent when he was 1 week old

I looked at Dani and I told him that felt like only yesterday I was baking him in my belly, I can still feel his moving around in my tummy and I felt like it was just yesterday Ive waited patiently to go to the Operation Room to deliver him.Then I started crying.I mean like literally crying my eye's out.

" His a big boy now, even time die nak berjalan i nk pimpin die pun die marah. die suruh i lepaskan tangan.His only 1 years old. And he doesnt need me anymore." 

Dani started laughing until Baby D got scared and crying. He crawls towards me and begging to be hugged. 'Tau pulak carik mummy'. Pffttt!

Then when my parents return home Dani told them about what happen and my mom mediate responds was 

 " aku yang menjage budak tu dari kecik, basuhkan berak, suapkan makan and his first word is atok."

Then I told my mom, " I carried him for 8 months sampai kene darah tinggi, bleeding, leakage, masuk wad 2-3 kali, then bila da besar muke sebijik muke atok.Imagine how i feel! "

Yes! He looks exactly like my father. Same ears, same eyes, same nose, same forehead, same flat head but Baby D is way fairer.His fairness got from his father. Not a single thing he coppied me. Nothing. Oh ya there's one, his tantrum. Exactly like his mummy. *___________*

Looking at all his photo from he was still in my tummy until his 11 months old makes me cry so much. 11 months we completed each others life, he taught me alot to be a patience mother even sometimes I fail miserably, and somehow he show me the true meaning of unconditional love.

See!! I started crying again while typing this. Dammit Zara!!!! Hati tisu siot ko nih!!

* Baby D, masuk balik dalam perut mummy please! *