Dulu mase kecik-kecik, aku tak pikir yang memakai tu penting sebab banyak perempuan dikalangan kite yang tak pakai tudung. Even aku g sekolah, tapi time main volley ball and skate board aku bukak jugak. kire cam bende tu just sebahagian dari uniform sekolah sahaje. So, its an ON and Off thing for me...
Then lelame my mom n dad forcing me to wear one coz of aurat. I was not ok at all about it. Then i end up, faking it all.. In sense where, infront of my parents, aku pakai sebab tak tahan kene mara but belakang die org aku bukak.. Bile kantoi, aku just cakap seru belom sampai. Tapi bile dipikirkan balik, dah mmg sejak beribu tahun dulu dah ditulis dlm Al-Quran yang wajib bagi kaum wanita untuk menutup aurat...So, for afew years aku jadi remaje yg kuat memberontak. plus aku ni anak sorang, so paham2 sendiri la. Anak tungal ni kekadang keras kepala, degil x hingat. sampai abes mak aku poning cmno nak buek ngan anak dare die yang degil nan mampuih nih...
As i grew older, i see a different side of life. Aku banyak bermuhasabah diri dari memberontak. Everytime pegi keje mak mesti pesan "Ayong, selagi ayong tak kawin,selagi tu abah tanggung dosa ayong. Ingat".. usually bile my mom ckp camtu time aku kat college, aku mesti melenting dan sebagainya. Tapi bile da tue2 nih, aku lebih pada senyum.
Dulu aku pakai semate-mate nk diamkan mak n abah, sedapkan ati die org. Tapi now, aku pakai kerana - NYA.. Even tak sempurna sometimes sebab aku turun bawah kat kete pun aku x pakai tudung gak, tapi aku xperlu disuruh.. Bile nak kuar, automatically aku duduk dlm bilik and belek2 tudung mane nak pakai. Aku sendiri rela nak pakai..
I notice that bile aku pakai tudung, i feel different. Here's why :
1. Dulu aku da biase bile jumpe ngan member, the first thing i would do i, hug n laga pipi pd member lelaki or pompuan. I think its a KL people thing. memang da terbiase.I do that to my close guy frends like Mochtar,Ash, Zack....Mase first time aku bawak Dani jumpe mochtar, he was shocked when he saw me hug n kiss mochtar on his cheek.Dani siap tanye, nape buat camtu?..aku just senyum n said, Its KL people thing..Tapi nowaday since da pakai tudung, bile bjumpe aku just senyum. Mmg pelik but thats how it is.
2. Dressing mmg completely different. No more skinny jeans - if nak pakai pun aku akan make sure baju aku long enough to cover my behind. I have alot of caridgan in my wardrobe compared to old days.If i wish to wear a t-shirt, i will definitely wear and long inner inside.
3. Less on the make-up. Hal ni aku baru found out actually. Islam love simplicity.moderation. Aku usually pakai make-up whenever i go. Kecuali g tesco ke,kuar beli barang dapur. Kalo jumpe member or dating, kompom aku akn makan pakai make up.and it took me almost 1 1/2 hours just tuk bersiap. Thats why bile abah kate nak g memane, he will inform me d day before. Why? sebab die tau anak die akan geledah almari and carik baju ape nk pakai, or tudung ape nk matchkan dengan baju. I would even asked my mom for her opinion on my outfit.
4. Tudung.. Aku ni jenis x suke pakai tudung yg lilit-lilit..Tapi nowadays since im alot more interested in fashion, aku menyesuaikan diri ngan all kinds of style when it comes to hijab.Dulu aku prefer bawal jew. senang.. Tapi now i will mixed it up. Aku sekarang rajin browse kt google or even youtube tuk carik wats the latest fashion when it comes to hijab styling. Tapi 1 style yng aku x master lg til now.. Hana Tajima style. Too much pin and lilitan involve. So to whoever out there yang da expert, I SOLUTE YOU!!!
All this are still new to me... Aku bukan nk drastically changed.. nanti sangkot lg tengah2 jalan. I would to do it on my own terms. I told Dani about it and he was very suportive. He said better do it in my own terms,take it slowly..For wat is worst, I found my new Me when wearing a hijab. :)
Then lelame my mom n dad forcing me to wear one coz of aurat. I was not ok at all about it. Then i end up, faking it all.. In sense where, infront of my parents, aku pakai sebab tak tahan kene mara but belakang die org aku bukak.. Bile kantoi, aku just cakap seru belom sampai. Tapi bile dipikirkan balik, dah mmg sejak beribu tahun dulu dah ditulis dlm Al-Quran yang wajib bagi kaum wanita untuk menutup aurat...So, for afew years aku jadi remaje yg kuat memberontak. plus aku ni anak sorang, so paham2 sendiri la. Anak tungal ni kekadang keras kepala, degil x hingat. sampai abes mak aku poning cmno nak buek ngan anak dare die yang degil nan mampuih nih...
As i grew older, i see a different side of life. Aku banyak bermuhasabah diri dari memberontak. Everytime pegi keje mak mesti pesan "Ayong, selagi ayong tak kawin,selagi tu abah tanggung dosa ayong. Ingat".. usually bile my mom ckp camtu time aku kat college, aku mesti melenting dan sebagainya. Tapi bile da tue2 nih, aku lebih pada senyum.
Dulu aku pakai semate-mate nk diamkan mak n abah, sedapkan ati die org. Tapi now, aku pakai kerana - NYA.. Even tak sempurna sometimes sebab aku turun bawah kat kete pun aku x pakai tudung gak, tapi aku xperlu disuruh.. Bile nak kuar, automatically aku duduk dlm bilik and belek2 tudung mane nak pakai. Aku sendiri rela nak pakai..
I notice that bile aku pakai tudung, i feel different. Here's why :
1. Dulu aku da biase bile jumpe ngan member, the first thing i would do i, hug n laga pipi pd member lelaki or pompuan. I think its a KL people thing. memang da terbiase.I do that to my close guy frends like Mochtar,Ash, Zack....Mase first time aku bawak Dani jumpe mochtar, he was shocked when he saw me hug n kiss mochtar on his cheek.Dani siap tanye, nape buat camtu?..aku just senyum n said, Its KL people thing..Tapi nowaday since da pakai tudung, bile bjumpe aku just senyum. Mmg pelik but thats how it is.
2. Dressing mmg completely different. No more skinny jeans - if nak pakai pun aku akan make sure baju aku long enough to cover my behind. I have alot of caridgan in my wardrobe compared to old days.If i wish to wear a t-shirt, i will definitely wear and long inner inside.
3. Less on the make-up. Hal ni aku baru found out actually. Islam love simplicity.moderation. Aku usually pakai make-up whenever i go. Kecuali g tesco ke,kuar beli barang dapur. Kalo jumpe member or dating, kompom aku akn makan pakai make up.and it took me almost 1 1/2 hours just tuk bersiap. Thats why bile abah kate nak g memane, he will inform me d day before. Why? sebab die tau anak die akan geledah almari and carik baju ape nk pakai, or tudung ape nk matchkan dengan baju. I would even asked my mom for her opinion on my outfit.
4. Tudung.. Aku ni jenis x suke pakai tudung yg lilit-lilit..Tapi nowadays since im alot more interested in fashion, aku menyesuaikan diri ngan all kinds of style when it comes to hijab.Dulu aku prefer bawal jew. senang.. Tapi now i will mixed it up. Aku sekarang rajin browse kt google or even youtube tuk carik wats the latest fashion when it comes to hijab styling. Tapi 1 style yng aku x master lg til now.. Hana Tajima style. Too much pin and lilitan involve. So to whoever out there yang da expert, I SOLUTE YOU!!!
All this are still new to me... Aku bukan nk drastically changed.. nanti sangkot lg tengah2 jalan. I would to do it on my own terms. I told Dani about it and he was very suportive. He said better do it in my own terms,take it slowly..For wat is worst, I found my new Me when wearing a hijab. :)
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