Tak payah tunggu New Years eve baru nak ade future goals.. Sekarang pon boleh. Bile pikirkan pasal hal2 semase dan hal2 yang sedang berlegar kat pale otak ni, rase cam nk muntah and pening2 lalat cam org bunting. adeh... Alhamdulillah dimurahkan rezeki aku dapat increment. Memang bersyukur sangat. Tahun murahkan rezeki aku. Bile da makin tinggi gaji seseorang, rasenye makin tinggi expenses. Ke idop aku x berkat? adeh... bertambah pening.
Bile aku calculate total subjects left, aku rase cam nk tembak diri sendiri. 17 weyh.. Kalo ikotkan study outline dulu, sepatutnye sekarang aku busy wat thesis and jumpe supervisor. Tapi malangnye, study outline telah diubah sebab nak selaraskan dengan new intake. Bermakne, aku ade lg 17 subject tu finish, termasuk afew more subject aku kene repeat. Yeah1 my bad on that.
Then, aku nak setat kumpul duit tuk hari penting. After a long discussion degan Che Mat, kite org rase better kumpul seberapa banyak harte as posible. Sebab now sume consume money. haih! Tetibe hilang semangat. I need a long vacation pun ye gak. Amok told me maybe if nothing works out between her n her boyfriend, the both of us are heading to Sabah. yesh!! Girls Trip. Amok pun now are stressing out over the fact that her job is literally sucking every energy that she has. Macam biase dengar ajew.
Tapi seronok ke pegi holiday sedangkan fikiran aku xbley nak lari dr memikirkan tentang college yang sampai la ni x sudah2? Ya Allah... pening pale...Rase cam aku x ready nak tunang next year. Banyak nak pakai duit. bayar fees, bayar kete. Plus nk kumpul lg harte. Aritu ade nampak new property development dekat area Puncak Jalil. 2 -storey house intermediate. The price is around 350k-450k... adeh.. duit lagis!
Bile di fikirkan balik, banyak bende kite org nak settlekan before start thinking of getting married and have kids. But to be honest, the both of us memang da ready in terms of physically and mentally. But financia wise, not really. Mostly, i feel bad towards Che Mat. Man always think ahead. way ahead.. Everytime the conversation about marriage was brought up, to my suprised, his taking 20 steps ahead as i would only go for 5 steps ahead. His thinking way ahead. What is this didnt work out and wat are we gonna do? .. What is the consequences if we do this and what will happen if we dont? See!!1 way to far.
He wasnt brought up with a silver spoon in his mouth like i did when i was growing up. But after hearing his stories, i was shocked.. I didnt expect anything.So, trying to be the most supporting, loving and caring gf as i could posibly can, i've decided to give him some times to make sure that everything's is working out the way he expect.Supporting his brother's n father first before anything else. God knows how long its gonna ake but im sure deep down , any time soon he will get wat he deserve all this time. His been working to hard for it.
Again, Its all about whats best for me, him, and the rest. So with that said, me and Che Mat have to take baby steps before we decided to hold hands, and jump into the big pool!...
Bile aku calculate total subjects left, aku rase cam nk tembak diri sendiri. 17 weyh.. Kalo ikotkan study outline dulu, sepatutnye sekarang aku busy wat thesis and jumpe supervisor. Tapi malangnye, study outline telah diubah sebab nak selaraskan dengan new intake. Bermakne, aku ade lg 17 subject tu finish, termasuk afew more subject aku kene repeat. Yeah1 my bad on that.
Then, aku nak setat kumpul duit tuk hari penting. After a long discussion degan Che Mat, kite org rase better kumpul seberapa banyak harte as posible. Sebab now sume consume money. haih! Tetibe hilang semangat. I need a long vacation pun ye gak. Amok told me maybe if nothing works out between her n her boyfriend, the both of us are heading to Sabah. yesh!! Girls Trip. Amok pun now are stressing out over the fact that her job is literally sucking every energy that she has. Macam biase dengar ajew.
Tapi seronok ke pegi holiday sedangkan fikiran aku xbley nak lari dr memikirkan tentang college yang sampai la ni x sudah2? Ya Allah... pening pale...Rase cam aku x ready nak tunang next year. Banyak nak pakai duit. bayar fees, bayar kete. Plus nk kumpul lg harte. Aritu ade nampak new property development dekat area Puncak Jalil. 2 -storey house intermediate. The price is around 350k-450k... adeh.. duit lagis!
Bile di fikirkan balik, banyak bende kite org nak settlekan before start thinking of getting married and have kids. But to be honest, the both of us memang da ready in terms of physically and mentally. But financia wise, not really. Mostly, i feel bad towards Che Mat. Man always think ahead. way ahead.. Everytime the conversation about marriage was brought up, to my suprised, his taking 20 steps ahead as i would only go for 5 steps ahead. His thinking way ahead. What is this didnt work out and wat are we gonna do? .. What is the consequences if we do this and what will happen if we dont? See!!1 way to far.
He wasnt brought up with a silver spoon in his mouth like i did when i was growing up. But after hearing his stories, i was shocked.. I didnt expect anything.So, trying to be the most supporting, loving and caring gf as i could posibly can, i've decided to give him some times to make sure that everything's is working out the way he expect.Supporting his brother's n father first before anything else. God knows how long its gonna ake but im sure deep down , any time soon he will get wat he deserve all this time. His been working to hard for it.
Again, Its all about whats best for me, him, and the rest. So with that said, me and Che Mat have to take baby steps before we decided to hold hands, and jump into the big pool!...
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