Hati Tisu...

Greetings peeps...

Most of my friends said that i dont have ANY quality of becoming a mom. Not even one. That i have to agree actually. I dont like babies or little kids.Reason to this is because i find them extremely annoying. I have afew nieces and nephew but non of them liked me. Whenever i tried to come closed, neither they started crying hysterically or then ran away. Its always been like that.

Im not a responsible type of person. I cant even take care of myself so how am i supposed to take care of other human being who needs you and they depend on you most of the time? Yes! I cant make huge commitment... 

I get really annoyed when babies started to scream and crying at the same time. It gaves me a headache. No joke. My bext door neighbor had a new born baby and the baby cant stop crying.There's one time i asked mak why to babies cried all the time? Do i cried all the time like that...

The  out of nowhere she said " macam mane nak ade anak kalau anak melalak ko tak tahan?.. ko nak hentak anak ko kat dinding suruh die senyap?"..

I have ZERO tolerance and patience. I get annoyed when people gave me a bad time, crying screaming. I just cant. See!! I cant be a good mother kan?

But lately after me and Dani got married, everythings change. The though girl i used to know is no longer me. I get emotional very easy. Dani didnt wake me up for morning prayers, i started crying. He forgot to say he loves me before we go to bed, i started crying. Long story short, my eye sore so much from crying. I cant even closed my eyes. 

Then today i came across with this,

The minute i heard the baby cried, i was crying myself. I didn't get annoyed at all like i used too..I dont know what is it about this video. No matter how many times i watch this, im sure as hell im going to cry again.

Dani knew me for 3 long years. He never saw me cried or hear me cried over the phone. Only the time when we were about to get married. That particular time, i was crying because i was super tired but i cant sleep.

My guess is the hormonal change.

But one questiones still lingering in my mind 

" am i ever going to be a great mother?"....